All Alone chapter 15

Previously

Forty minutes later, I was washed, dressed in a pair of denim shorts and a tank top. I was definitely showing now, there is no denying my pregnancy because it so obvious. I put on a pair of flip-flops, went down the stairs to the living room and was assaulted with a three-way hug from none other than Esme and Carlisle.

I pulled away and hugged them both individually.

After ten minutes of hugging, kissing and crying, we walked into the living room.

I noticed a third person sitting on the couch, with his back facing me, as he spoke to Jasper and Alice. He stood up, turned around and smiled at me. My heart jumped to my throat and I forgot how to breathe. Everything went black.

Chapter 15

BPOV

Everything was so peaceful. The sun was shining, birds were chirping as I walked through a meadow full of the most beautiful flowers I had ever seen. Suddenly I heard voices calling for me to come back.

“Bella, Bella!”

I closed my eyes for a few seconds. As I slowly opened them again, I was in Jasper’s living room lying on the couch.

“Bella, are you OK sweetheart?” Carlisle asked. 

Everything suddenly came back to me and I remembered walking into the living room seeing Alice and Jasper sitting down on the couch talking to…….

I jumped up and looked around for the face that I thought that I saw, when he came over and sat down next to me taking me by the hand.

“Hey Bells, I hoped that you would be happy to see me but I did not expect you to faint,” he joked.

Tears came to my eyes and I jumped into the arms of the one person who was always there for me but he was also the one person that I had to leave behind.

“Oh Alec, I have missed you, so much. Everything is going to be alright now that you are here,” I cried burying my face in his chest.

He leaned his cheek against my hair and tightened his hold on me. "I've missed you too." He whispered so only I could hear.

I cried as he continued to hold me for the next twenty minutes. When I felt that I had no tears left, I pulled away from him.

“Alec, not that I am not happy and relieved to see you but what are you doing here? Do mum and dad know that you came to see me?”

He smiled that cocky little smile that could always get him what he wanted.

“Esme and Carlisle came to visit mum and dad. They told them that you were having a hard time and that you missed us. Esme told them that it might lift your spirits if you received a visit from at least one member of your family. Dad told them that they loved you and missed you but they were not ready to see you just yet. I was sitting in the living room with them while they were talking so I begged them to let me come to you. Mum hesitated at first, but dad thought that it would be a good idea, knowing how close we always were. So between Dad, Esme and Carlisle, we convinced her to let me come see you for a few weeks.”

He continued to smile while he was talking and I continued to cry. I had missed him so much and I could not believe that we had two whole weeks together. We continued to hold each other, afraid to leave each other go in case the other disappeared.

“I have missed you Bells, so much,” he whispered into my hair.

“I’ve missed you too Alec,” I cried.

 He started telling me everything that was going on back in Forks. He said that Lauren Mallory and Jessica Stanley were pissed because I was with Edward and they were convinced that given the chance he would fall in love with them. After what seemed like hours, Jasper dragged him away to the game room with Carlisle while Alice and I went into kitchen with Esme to make dinner.

Esme started making her famous Salmon Wellington and I mixed the salad while Esme told us what the plan was while they were here.

“Girls, I am going to have a talk with Carmen and find out what she is up too, but there is one thing that Carlisle and I agree on and that is that we do not think it is in your best interests to continue staying with her. We have decided Carlisle and I will move out here to LA so that we can be with you both. Besides, it will be good to get away from the cold weather of Forks,” she joked.

She paused for breath before she continued.

“Carlisle’s parents have a holiday home here in Malibu and when we told them that we were going to move out here for a while, they signed the house over to us. It is at Broad Beach Road, which is not far from here. Carlisle has already put in for a transfer at work. I will be staying here with you both until it comes through.”

She looked at me and took my hand.

“Carmen may have said or done a lot of things but there is one thing that I agree with her and that is the fact that Elizabeth Masen is the best ob-gyn in the country. I had her checked out and I do not believe that you would be able to find anyone better qualified. It is your decision if you wish to continue with her and I will support you either way,” she said.

I could not describe the happiness that I was feeling at that moment. Esme and Carlisle were moving here to be with Alice and me. They were the only ones that have supported me from the beginning. If Esme says that I will be okay with  Elizabeth Masen been my ob-gyn then I will have to trust her.

“We will talk more about everything later but first we better feed those men before they starve to death” she joked, as she picked up the Salmon Wellington that she had made from scratch and brought it to the table. Alice and I picked up the salad and bread before following behind her closely.

Alice went to call Carlisle, Alec and Jasper to dinner while I sat and spoke to Esme.

“Bella did you hear any more from Edward? I know that he is going to great lengths in a effort to find you. The sky writing in Seattle was pure genius,” she said.

Before I could answer, Jasper and Alec came to the table laughing and joking whileCarlisle and Alice followed closely behind. Esme told them were to sit and dished up the dinner giving, everyone generous servings.

Alec and Jasper continued to talk as if they were old close friends. I did not pay any attention to their conversation until I heard Jasper mentioning Edward’s name to Alec.

“Edward is not a bad guy. He was just dealt a shitty hand of cards. That whore Emily truly screwed him up, royally. Now I am not saying that I am happy with the way he treated Bella and our friendship has suffered because of it but maybe we should at least hear him out. From what I have heard, he really wants to turn things around,” he said.

Alec shook his head in disagreement.

“I cannot agree to that Jazz. He may have a shitty past and he may be now regretting everything, but this is my twin sister that we are talking about. She is the one who is pregnant and is dealing with his shit. He really needs to prove that he has changed before I allow him to go anywhere near my sister,” he said.

Esme, Carlisle, Alice and I sat around the table listening with great interest to their conversation, but the only thing that stood out in my mind was some girl’s name.

Emily.

I keep repeating what Jasper said about her repeatedly in my head.

“Edward is not a bad guy. He was just been dealt a shitty hand of cards. That whore Emily truly screwed him up, royally.”

Who was this bitch and what did she do too Edward? Was I doing the right thing in ignoring him or should I at least meet with him and hear him out?

I stood up and placed my napkin on the table next to my untouched food.

“May I be excused? I have a headache,” I asked, running upstairs to my room before anyone could answer me.

I threw myself on top of my bed and put the pillow over my face trying to stop the thoughts racing through my head. I faintly heard someone come into the room and sit down on the bed next to me. I threw the pillow to one side and looked into Esme’s caring eyes.

I sat up and threw my arms around her as she gave me a motherly hug back.

I buried my face in her shoulder, crying quietly.

“I do not know what to do Esme. I want to hear what he has to say, but on the other hand he hurt me so much that I am scared about what he has to say. Please tell me what to do because I have no idea,” I cried.

She pulled back and looked at me

“Bella, I cannot tell you what to do. The only thing that I will tell you is that the answer to all your questions can be found within your heart. You must have faith in others, but most importantly you must have faith in yourself,” she said.

She stood up to leave the room. When she got to the door, she turned around and gave me one last piece of advice.

“Do not be ashamed of what you feel. We will all be here for you, stand by you and love you, no matter what,” she said as she left the room.

The second the door closed I threw my head back on the pillow and closed my eyes, wondering what the fuck I was going to do.

I put my hand over my stomach and started stroking it with the palm of my hand.

“I promise to you that you will be loved no matter what.

“She says, I have to have faith in others and myself. Yeah right,” I whispered to my stomach, stroking it lovingly as I dozed off.

EPOV

“Eddie be ready in fifteen minutes because I am going to drag your ugly ass out of the house today,” Emmett’s voice roared through the phone. I had to keep the receiver well away from my ear so that I would not go deaf.

It had been three days since I arrived back in LA from Seattle, Three days, since I met the skank who rang me in Seattle and told me to come to Beverly Hills and see Bella, Three days, since I saw my mother in the clinic and broke down thinking about Bella. I could not stop thinking about what she said after my episode in her office.

Flashback

My mother continued to rock me back and forth until my breathing was under control and I calmed down.

She helped me get up off the floor and sat with me on the coach. When she was sure that I was comfortable, she got up to get me a glass of water, which I gratefully drank.

“Edward, you are my baby and I cannot stand seeing you like this. You have got to take better of yourself,” mum whispered.

I looked at her and I could see the worry written all over her face.

“I know mum but no matter what I need to sort things out with Bella. I want to love her and our baby the way they deserve. I need her to know that I am sorry for everything that I have said and done. I will spend the rest of my life proving it to her, even if she never forgives me,” I whimpered.

My mother’s face wrinkled in thought. After five minutes of silence she looked at me at gave a small smile.

“Edward like I said you are my son and I love you but if I am lucky enough for Bella to continue allowing me be her ob-gyn then I would not be able to tell you where she is unless she gave me permission to do so.”

But let me give you a bit of advice. If you truly want to sort things out with Bella and make things right, you will have to do is get outside of your comfort zone. You need to put yourself on the line, make her believe that you honestly are sorry and that you want a second chance with her,” she said.

End Flashback

“Edward are you still there dude,” Emmett shouted. I quickly snapped back to the present and put the receiver back to my ear.

“Hey Emmett, can we take a rain check? There is something that I need to do,” I asked hanging up the phone before he could answer me.

I waited for a few minutes before ringing my manager, Ted Broady.

It rang three times before he answered.

“Well I must be dreaming. It cannot be Edward Masen ringing me,” Ted laughed.

I pinched the bridge of my nose while taking deep breaths wondering if I was doing the right thing where Bella was concerned before I thought back to what my mother said.

“If you truly want to sort things out with Bella and make things right, you will have to get outside of your comfort zone. You need to put yourself on the line, make her believe that you honestly are sorry and that you want a second chance with her

 “Yeah I am doing the right thing,” I thought as I started to talking to Ted.

“Cut the shit Ted, there is something that I need you to do for me.”

“Ok Ed, I am calm now. What do you want me to do for you,” he asked.

I brushed my fingers through my hair and pulled at it hard, thinking that there was no going back now.

“Well, I need you to set up an interview with Jane Murphy and Rebecca Long at the entertainment channel network.”

I took a deep breath before I continued.

“Do you remember the interview I gave about the sixteen year old girl in Forks, Washington? The one who said she was pregnant with my baby?”

After a long pause on the other end of the phone, he answered.

“Yeah I remember but what has that got to do with anything,” he asked.

I took another deep breath to keep myself calm.

“I need to set the story straight and explain everything.”

I could hear heavy breathing on the other end of the phone as if he were hyperventilating.

“Explain what,” he snapped.

“I need to explain that I lied, that I am in fact the father of Isabella Swan’s baby.”

BPOV

I could faintly hear giggling in the background as I slowly opened my eyes. I saw from the corner of my eye that there were two people over by the balcony and one of them was shouting to someone down below.

I laughed when I saw that it was Alec in a tickling war with Alice she was shouting down at Jasper begging him to help her, demanding to know what he was going to do about her situation?

I was always happy that Alec treated Alice like another sister now it seemed like he had befriended Jasper as well. I only wish that we could have included Edward in all of this. It made my heart tighten knowing that he was not with me but could be if I gave him a chance to explain. Both Alice and Alec calmed down from the tickling war before they saw me getting up out of bed. Alec came over to me and put his arms around my shoulders.

“Are you alright sis? What happened to you downstairs,” he asked with concern.

I looked from him to Alice and told him that I overheard what Jasper had told him, the news about some girl called Emily. Alice went over to the balcony and shouted down to Jasper asking him if he would come up to the room. There was silence until we heard a faint knock on the door.

Jasper opened the door and walked in before any of us could answer. He walked over and sat on the sofa opposite my bed next to Alice while Alec sat on the bed next to me.

Alice asked Jasper what he knew about a girl called Emily and what she had to do with Edward. Jasper looked at Alice and I in shock, not expecting either one of us to mention her.

He quickly recovered and looked at me.

“Bella, there is not much that I can tell you frankly it is Edward’s story to tell. I will tell you that Emily was his girlfriend in school and that she screwed him over pretty good. When they broke-up he lost his trust in girls, he believes the worst in them and think that they are all out to trap him,” he said sadly.

I thought for a moment before speaking.

“If that is true and you know the reason behind why Edward reacted the way he did, why are you ignoring your friendship with him?”

He was silent for a few minutes and looked at Alice who gave his hand gentle squeeze to show her support.

“The reason why I am not talking to him Bella is because no matter what he has suffered in his past, you did not deserve the way he has been treating you. He could explain everything to you, instead he choose to be an asshole and I am not happy with that. You deserve better than that shit, Bella.”

I shook my head when he finished.

“Jazz, I am incredibly grateful to you for what you have done but Edward is probably out there confused about everything and he has nobody to talk to about it. I have Esme, Carlisle, Alice and Alec. So I think that once we all move into the Malibu home, you should get in touch with Edward, have him come stay with you and for you to be his best friend again,” I whimpered, my eyes shining with tears.

Jasper jumped up off the sofa that he was sitting on with Alice and pulled me into a tight hug.

“Bella how can you be so selfless and look the other way, especially with all he has put you through. If it was anyone else, they would be wishing him death,” he said.

I continued to hug him back.

“Everybody needs someone no matter what he has done to me he deserves to have his friends support. I cannot help but think about who is the one that is truly all alone, Edward or I?  I even had his mother keep the fact that she saw me a secret from him and that was not right,” I sniffed.

He pulled back and looked at me in awe.

“Ok Bella, I will get in touch with him and make sure that he is alright,” he said, before he pulled me close  for another hug.

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Three days have gone by since I told Jasper to talk to Edward but he still has to call him. He insists on waiting to ring him, stating that he will do so when we have moved into Esme and Carlisle’s Malibu home. I knew that he was worried about Edward turning up and possibly seeing me here if he were to ring him before we left.

I have continued to think about whether I should contact him or not. If what Jasper said was true about Edward’s ex-girlfriend then I should at least hear him out and let him explain. Not only for myself but also for the sake of my unborn baby.

I was feeling nauseous all morning so I decided to stay behind in Jasper’s home while everybody else went to view Esme and Carlisle’s Malibu home. I was lying down on the couch when I heard the house phone ringing. I debated with myself whether I should answer it or not. I decided against it because I was afraid that if I moved I would vomit, so I left the answering machine pick it up.

When the message on the machine finished, a voice that I sincerely missed spoke.

“Hi Jazz, it’s Edward. It seems so long since we spoke and I know that you will not be happy about hearing from me now. The reason that I am phoning now is I was hoping you would be able to get in touch with Bella.”

My heart skipped a beat when I heard him saying my name. I held my breath as he continued.

“If you can get in touch with her, will you please ask her to watch the entertainment channel at 8pm tonight? It is very important to me that she watches a specific interview on that channel, at exactly that time. Thanks man.”

The machine went silent, proving that he had hung up. I started breathing again and did not realise that I was crying until I saw a tear falling on the cushion where my head lay.

His voice sounded so beautiful but was filled with sadness. I wanted nothing more than to pick up the phone, check the caller id and ring him back, but knew that I was not ready to do that yet. I wondered what was so important about that particularly interview, why he was so insistent that I watch it.

I continued to listen to his voice on the answering machine and cry until I was sure that they were no tears left to shed. Before I knew it, the front door opened and in walked Alec, Jasper and Alice; all talking excitedly about the house that they saw with Esme and Carlisle, who were walking closely behind them with big smiles on their faces. The chatter stopped shortly after they saw me sitting on the sofa, my arms wrapped around a cushion and tears falling from my eyes.

Alice came and sat next to me, clutching my right hand in hers while Alec sat on the other side of me with his arms wrapped around my shoulders.

He looked at me with so much love and concern in his eyes.

“What happened Bells?”

I cried even harder trying to explain.

“Edward…answering machine…interview…voice…hurt…” I sobbed.

Jasper went straight to the answering machine and played back the message. A new batch of tears came to my eyes when I heard his voice again. Esme discreetly went into the kitchen and started to make lunch while we sat and discussed what was going on.

Jasper looked deep in thought before he started speaking.

“Bella, how would you feel about me ringing Edward back and finding out what he is doing and what the interview is about,” he asked.

I did not trust myself to speak, so Alice spoke instead.

“Ok Jazzy, but please do not tell him that we are here. You can tell him that you see us and know where we are, but not that we are staying here,” she said.

Jasper nodded and picked up the phone so that he could go into another room while we all sat and waited in anticipation.

JPOV

I picked up my house phone and walked into my den, which is my sanctuary, the only room in my house that I can unwind and call my own.

I cannot help but think back to how much my life changed when I met Alice four months ago. She quickly captured my heart and became my soul mate, Bella is like a sister to her and quickly became like a sister to me. When Bella found out that, she was pregnant with Edward’s baby and after the way Edward started treating her, I became very protective towards her in a brotherly kind of way.

Edward is my best friend and I love him but he needs to take that stick out of his ass and grow up.

When Bella asked me to get in touch with Edward so that he would have a friend to talk to, I was in awe by her selflessness and could not be any prouder of her.

I sat in my chair looking at the phone wondering what I was going to say to him for a few minutes before I decide to dial his number.

I quickly dialled his cell number and waited for him to answer.

“Hello, Jazz,” he asked breathlessly

I paused before answering.

“How did you know that it was me?”

“Caller ID,” he laughed

“Well Ed, I got your message on the answering machine. What is your plan? What are you up to,” I asked not bothering to beat around the bush.

“Jazz, I need to make things right. I miss her and need her in my life. It took me this long to realize what she and the baby mean everything to me. I have gone and done everything the wrong way and need her to know that I am willing to do whatever it takes for her to trust me,” he answered.

“So what is the interview about and what are you planning on talking about?”

There was a long pause before he answered me.

“I am admitting that I am the baby’s father and that I am in love with Bella. I am also explaining the reason why I denied it in the first place without going into full details. I think it is best for me to tell Bella about that in private. Just her and me,” he said his voice laced with sadness.

I could hear from the sound of his voice that he meant everything that he was saying, so the least I could do is assure him that Bella will see the interview tonight but I cannot tell him that she is staying with me. It is up to Bella to tell him that bit of information.

“Ok Eddie, I promise you that Bella will be watching that interview tonight. I do know where she is but I cannot tell you. If she wants to talk to you after she watches the interview then I will give her your cell number and then the both of you can arrange to meet up.”

“Thanks Jazz, you have no idea how much this means to me. Please will you answer one thing for me? How is she doing? Is there any problems? Is she and the baby ok?”

I smiled into the phone thinking this is the Edward that I know, my best friend.

“She is doing well. She is a lot stronger than she looks and I know for a fact that she wishes that you could be here with her but you will have your work cut out for you if you want her to forgive and trust her again.”

“Thanks again Jazz, I miss you mate but make sure that Bella and our baby are ok. That is all that I care about,” he said

I did not miss what he said when he called it our baby. It makes me happy that he is willing to take responsibility for their child. My best friend is truly coming back.

“I will Eddie, look after yourself and I give you a ring tomorrow,” I smiled into the phone.

“Bye Jazz,” he answered, and hung up.

I continued to sit in my chair so that I could get my thoughts together before I got up and went into the living room to tell everybody how proud I am of my best friend.