10/09/2012
Previously
BPOV
"You love me? Well here's a news flash I hate you. I hate the fact that you make me speechless, I hate that I can't go a day without thinking about you or wondering if you're thinking about me. I hate this feeling. I feel empty without you. I've never felt this way about anyone before and I hate it and most of all I hate that I love you."
He then turned and walked out of the door.
I looked around at everyone and then ran upstairs to my room, I threw myself on top of the bed and cried until I felt like there were no tears left.
EPOV
Walking away was without a doubt the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. It took every inch of myself control to not turn around and walk back into that house. I wanted to throw my arms around her and tell her to hell with Tanya and that I would leave and go to New York with her.
I can't believe that this is happening to me. I thought I would have at least a year to prove that she is the only one for me and that I would go wherever she was. All I needed to do was wait until Tanya had the baby.
Bella and Emmet suspecting that Tanya was not actually really pregnant stuck in my head. I would give all my money to charity if that was in fact the truth. But I had to face the fact that she was pregnant, I had seen the pregnancy test. I knew that I would love that baby but I'm only 19 years old and the only person that I would ever want to have my children with is Bella.
I started the car and drove straight to Tanya's apartment. I let myself in with the key that she had given me and heard her crying in the bedroom.
"Tanya, what's wrong?"
She looked up at me under her lashes.
"Wrong! I will tell what is wrong," she spat.
"That ex bitch of yours yelled and cursed at me outside the lawyers’ office and then again in Starbucks, before she threw my coffee all over my new Chanel suit.
I sighed in frustration. I really didn’t care about how Bella spoke to Tanya. She's a spitfire and frankly I find Bella's temper sexy.
"Tanya, first of all don't ever call Bella a bitch again because if you do I won't be responsible for my actions and second I truly believe that you deserved it."
Tanya was shaking with the anger at this point.
"I can't believe that you are sticking up for that little whore when I am the one sitting here crying and upset, which I might add is not good for the baby."
"Tanya, I'm going to ask you this and only ask it once. Is there even a baby?" I asked praying that the answer was no.
She looked at me trying to squeeze a few tears out. "Eddie, of course there is a baby. What makes you think that I would lie about something like that?"
I knew that I was grasping at straws here but I really and truly didn't want to marry her. I don’t even like her really. I wanted to be with Bella and if that meant New York then so be it. I would spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to her.
"Tanya, until I'm sure and you give me some solid proof, I'm afraid that there won't be a wedding."
Tanya got up and walked over to her bag.
"What kind a proof do you need, Eddie? Will an ultrasound picture do?" She said, shoving a picture into my hand.
I looked at it and saw that it was an ultrasound photo of a baby dated today. She looked at me all smug.
"I had a doctor's appointment after my visit to the lawyer today. The baby is very healthy," she smirked.
"Oh by the way, I want to get married within the next 2 - 3 weeks."
"W-W-Why," I stuttered.
She laughed. "Oh for two reasons. One, is so that I can still fit into a decent wedding dress and two we don't want to wait until after I'm 24 weeks pregnant only for you to tell me that we won't be getting married, when it will be too late for me to have an abortion. I told you before, Eddie I'm not going to bring this baby up in a broken home. So it's either we get married in a few weeks or we can forget it and I will have an abortion. The choice is yours."
She turned and walked out of the room. I was so fucked.
BPOV
I continued to cry until I heard Rose and Alice walk into the room. Rose put a tray with shot glasses and tequila down on my dresser next to my bed and Alice put her arms around me.
"Bells, you promised us a girlie night and we are going to have a girlie night. Forget about Edward. I bought you this fantastic dress for clubbing tonight and I refuse to let it go to waste."
I have to laugh when Alice gives me the pouty face.
"Ok you annoying little pixie but if we are going to do this we need to do some shots first," I said looking at the tequila and shot glasses.
If my dad was alive he would kill me for doing this.
Rose poured the tequila into three shot glasses and handed one to each of us.
"A toast," she said holding up her shot glass. "To Bella, may all her dreams come true in New York and may she have a night to remember tonight."
"Here, here" Ali and I said together and threw the shot down our throats.
After our third shot I started to feel a little light headed but happy.
"I'm going to leave your hair the way Paul did it. It looks so soft and natural," Alice said.
She then took out the bag that contained what she had bought today.
"Put this on and no arguments," she said.
I looked inside the bag and there was a beautiful black knee-length satin dress. I put it on and surprise surprise, it fitted me perfectly, showing off my curves and hugging me in all the right place.
"Wow Alice it's great, thank you so much," I gushed.
"Well my job here is done. I'm going to leave you girls for a few minutes so that I can go and get dressed," she said leaving the room.
Rose walked out of her room wearing a sleeveless plain red silk dress. It looked absolutely stunning on her. After fifthteen minutes Alice walked out in a black silk knee length Chanel dress.
"Come on girls, sit on the bed," Rose said whilst she set the timer on her camera. She set the camera on my dresser and then joined us on
the bed.
"Everyone say cheese" she said before the camera went off.
"One for the road and then we will go out and paint the town red" Rosalie said, handing us both another shot.
"How are we getting to get to the club? We’ve all been drinking so none of us can drive," I asked.
"Don't worry Bells, Alice bought you the dress so I'm treating us to a limo and a bottle of champagne," Rose said obviously pleased with herself.
We went down to the living room. I had to walk slowly as I was wearing three inch heels and feeling the effects of the four shots. All I can think is thank god Emmett was nowhere in sight.
"Rose, where is Emmett?"
Rose looked at me as if for the first time in her life she didn’t know what to say.
"Bella, don't get upset but something happened and Emmett went out to meet someone." she said.
"Rosie, why would I get upset and who did he meet," I asked knowing that I won't like the answer.
Rose suddenly looked nervous.
"He went to meet Edward and before you ask I don't know why. All I know is that something happened to concern Emmett enough to go and meet him."
I decided then not to let that spoil my night so I put the whole thing out of my mind.
"Ok girls where is that limo because I'm in the mood for champagne," I said.
Alice and Rose looked happy that I was in a good mood.
"Let's go," they said and we walked out to the limo to have a night on the town.
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FYD~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
EPOV
All I could do was sit in the middle of the club Eclipse and cry into my double whiskey. This was the only club in Seattle that you could get away with using fake ID. I felt a tap on my shoulder and prayed that it wasn't another bimbo trying to flirt with me. I turned around to find Emmett looking at me. From the look in his eyes I almost believed that I had my best friend back. I know that his loyalties are with Bella and I hated the fact that I'm the reason that she is hurting right now.
"Thanks for coming Em, I didn't know who else to call. I'm just so fucked," I said.
I knew I sounded like a pussy but I didn't give a shit, this was my life on the line.
"Sure man, just because we stopped talking doesn't mean that I stopped caring about you. Tell me from the beginning what happened, all I heard on the phone was a load of panic." He said.
I then told him everything and Emmet listened quietly until I had finished.
"Eddie, why don't you delay her and take her to court to stop her from having the abortion," he asked.
"Don't you think that I haven’t thought of that? For fuck's sake I am a law student, the problem is that by the time I get a judge and a court date it would be too late and she would have had the abortion." I stated, before adding.
"Em I know that you don't believe me but all I want is Bella, but I wouldn't be able to live with myself if Tanya got rid of my baby."
Just when I thought that things couldn’t get get any worse, I had to be proved wrong as three beautiful girls walked in, but my eyes focus on the one in the middle.
Bella.
I have never seen her looking so beautiful, she looked like an angel, wearing a sexy knee length black dress with her hair falling down to her waist. I felt my pants get tighter as I sat there and looked at her.
Emmett started waving his hands in front of me and I was forced to look away from my angel.
"Eddie I can see how much you care for my sister, just go and talk to her. She is leaving next week and this might be your last chance, tell her what you just told me, she’ll understand," he said.
I drank down my whiskey and stood up to go and talk to her, but before I left I took a look at Emmett.
"Em, you and me are we!"
"Eddie we're cool," he answered my unspoken question.
I smiled and continued to make my way over to Bella. As soon as I approached they stopped talking and all three stared at me.
"Bella, can we talk in private please," I asked confidently whilst actually shaking on the inside.
She looked at me with those big brown eyes that always made me go weak at my knees.
She nodded and we went to a quiet corner of the club. I told her everything that I had told Emmett and when I was finished her eyes were shinning with tears.
"There are a few things that I want to tell you but I can't tell you here. Is there any where we can meet later?"
"How about my place? You know Emmett's old apartment."
She thought for a few seconds before replying.
"Ok, just let me have an hour or two with my girls and then we’ll go," she said before she walked over to Rose and Alice before I could answer.
I followed her over and noticed Emmett was already sitting there. Alice and Rose looked up at me.
"So what do you have to say for yourself, Edward," Alice asked.
I didn't know what to say so I didn't respond.
"Ed, did you talk to her," Emmett whispered nodding toward Bella.
Bella looked over at us.
"I don't know what you two pansies are talking about but Edward if you want to talk with me then let's get going," she said.
I heard Emmett grunt before I could answer her.
"I might be alright with Eddie again but there is no fucking way Bella is going anywhere alone with him," he said to Rose.
Rose put her hand on his arm and whispered something in his ear that caused Emmett to groan.
"Fine but if anything happens to her then this truce that we have will be very short lived," he pointed at me.
"Oh grow up Emmett. I'm a grown girl and I will see you at home later,"
Bella said.
She grabbed hold of my arm and we were halfway out of the club before anyone could say another word.
I got us a cab and told the driver my address.
As soon as we got to the apartment building I knew that I needed to kiss her before I spontaneously combusted. We got into the elevator and doors where barely closed when I pulled her to me and kissed her hard on the lips. She tasted like strawberries and tequila. It tasted like heaven and I wanted more. I put my hands down the top of her dress and under her bra. She moaned into my mouth giving me the go ahead to go further so, I massaged her breasts while continuing to assault her mouth.
When the elevator doors opened I regretfully pulled away and we walked up to my apartment door.
I went into the kitchen and brought out a bottle of wine and two glasses.
"Whatever you do don't tell your brother I gave you alcohol," I laughed trying to ease the tension after what had happened in the elevator.
She laughed along with me
I poured us both a glass of wine and kissed her again. I laid my hand on her knee and slowly started to move it up to the forbidden land. I felt like I couldn’t get enough of her. Instead of calling her angel, I should call her the devil because I'm starting to think that she was sent here to torture me.
"Bella we need to stop. I need to tell you everything about what's going on. If you still want us to continue this after you hear everything I have to say then I would like nothing more."
I then told her everything from start to finish.
"Tell me Bella, what should I do? Should I call her bluff and transfer so that I can be with you in New York or go through with this wedding?"
"I would love more than anything for you to be with me but if I told you that you should call her bluff and if she goes through with it then you will blame me and it will come between us," she whimpered.
I suddenly felt like I could cry. I was losing her and there was nothing I could do about it.
"You’re the one I love," I said. I felt like my heart was breaking.
"I know and when you have done all that you need to do then come find me and I will be waiting, right now we have tonight just for the two of us." She replied softly.
I leaned in and placed my lips on hers. I started nibbling on her bottom lip while trying to seek entrance into her mouth with my tongue which she willingly granted.
"Bella, I want you and if I continue then I won't be able to stop," I said.
She looked at me from under her eyelashes.
"I don't want you to stop; I want you to be my first. I know that we can't be together but please Edward, give me this one thing. Give me you for one night," she begged.
I knew that I should say no but god help me, I am selfish and I wanted her. There was no way I can refuse her when she begged me like that.
"Bedroom" is all I could say at that moment, before carrying her towards my bed.
"I want you so badly. I want to make love to you. I want to feel your body against mine. I want to feel you come. I want you to be mine even if it is just for one night." I whispered against her neck.
I lay her on my bed and stripped off her clothes. She simply lay there in all her glory with her hair all over my pillow looking like an angel. I swear that I have never or would never see anything more beautiful than what I saw in that moment.
I was all thumbs has I tried to take off my clothes but I managed to do it. I then lay down next to her and started kissing her all over.
"Bella, I want to taste you. I need to taste you. Please. "
She looked at me with tears in her eyes. I started kissing down her luscious body while palming her clit. She was so wet so I stuck one finger inside her while she was moaning with desire. I went up and attacked her lips. I continued pumping my finger in and out continuing to hit her g spot with my long finger. I added a second one and she quickly came on my fingers. I took them out as she came down from her high and licked each one clean.
"Mmmmmmmmmmm. You taste so good; I could feast on you all night."
For the first time I noticed that she wasn't looking at me but at my hard cock.
"You’re so big," she said with wide worried eyes, looking every bit the sweet innocent angel that she was.
"It will only hurt a little at first my angel, I promise. But if you want to stop we can!"
She shook her head no.
"I don't want to stop, I want you. I'm just a little scared, that's all," she said.
I took a condom from my nightstand and rolled it onto my long length. I entered her very slowly and carefully until I reached her barrier.
"Hold onto my arms and squeeze them because this is going to hurt a little."
She held on my arms as I broke through her hymen. She gave a little sob.
"Are you alright," I asked.
She nodded yes.
"I'm fine, just give me a minute," she said, as she adjusted herself.
I don't know how I managed to stay still without moving. She was so tight and warm.
"I'm alright now, you can move," she whimpered.
I pushed myself in as far as I could go but still it wasn't far enough. I wanted to be closer; I had never felt anything like this before. I felt love, hurt, anger and misery all at the same time. I was buried so deep inside her, but I wanted more. I slowly lifted each of her legs and rested them on my shoulders, then I gently lowered her torso to the ground and pressed over her, pinning her beneath me. I moved in long slow strokes, rubbing my pelvic bone deliberately along hers. She moaned with ecstasy underneath me. I grabbed her hips and angled even deeper, burying every inch of me into her before slowly pulling out, almost all the way before pushing back down. I grabbed at her and kissed her greedily - wanting to get my fill but knowing it would never, ever be enough.
I pushed harder and faster until she was writhing in ecstasy again and then as she came her walls pressed hard against me, causing me to release too.
I slowly came down from my high and pulled out of her. I immediately felt the loss. I got up and went into the bathroom and got a damp cloth.
I went back in only to find her lying on my bed with a big smile on her face. I crawled onto the bed next to her and very gently and lovingly cleaned her, before lying down next to her.
"How are feeling, Baby," I cooed.
She smiled up at me.
"Very happy and very satisfied," she continued to smile.
"Are your sore at all?"
She didn't answer because she was suddenly asleep in my arms and I knew that now that I couldn't let her live her life without me. I made a promise to myself. I was gonna get my life in order and then follow her to wherever she was.
I then fell asleep dreaming of the day when she would be mine.
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